featherlight

2011-05-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

i seriously think i am bipolar.
123 JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU & STUDY!

2011-05-11T21:44:00.001+08:00

bby look so cute with the green stripes and fake tongue. he's a snake okay. i think thats pretty obvious hehehee.

gong cha substitute. POOOR substitute. i want my RLMT.

One of those nights where i can just cry over anything and everything but no im a strong girl -shows biceps- I don't know why i just feel so vulnerable now, urgh. this fustrates me so bad. okay i'll mkes this quick hopefully below 5 mins cause i need to do work but i feel like writing someth too. zzzz. I miss all my friends leh. All my girlfs who we can just diss each other 'in your face' and know we won't mind and talk about silly things do silly stuffs just cause we're sick of school. i miss all of my friends so bad. usualsss too, those badminton sessions where i'l prob just sit at the court and watch them play and laugh at them when they miss the shuttle. oh man this is driving me nuts. + the fact that i havent seen jiayi for SOGODDAMNIT LONG. michelleeeeeee and fiona though we see each other in school everyday, our conversations get shorter and shorter cause we're always rushing off for class or back home cause we're super drain out after a long day at school. damn it. i don't even feel like studying anymore. i have no drive to do well in As though i know i bloody well MUSTTTT (if not its like the end of the world cuz i have no where to go with a lousy A level cert) I don't even look forward to university.. my life is kinda pathetic cause i have no goal and no aim and no drive to do what i dont know. okay the 5 mins is up.

bye pumpkins.

give me the sun

2011-04-09T11:45:00.000+08:00

met up with zhiying after sooo long :) That girl can really eat alot sia but she is still so skinny!!!!! & i coincidentally bumped into adilah saad jamming at cathay hurhurhur hahaha.
Old friends new friends i still love yall all the same. Tomtom is going away ): I WILL MISS YOUR BIMBOTIC VOICE DEARLY.......

Kt's 18!

2011-04-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

As I grow older, I find birthdays exceptionally depressing. 18 marks the beginning of adulthood i suppose, and no longer do we have a reason to act like kids, doing things w/o thinking of consequences. Here begins the whole new series of troubles, problems, routines, mundane-ness and obligations. Why do I sound so pessimistic?
Anyway, I had so much fun on that day *points to pictures above*. So easy to be with favourite people like them, afterall what's 9years of friendship for? -insert multiple hearts-

tinted glasses

2011-03-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

Somebody date me so i can wear this pretty thing out! (:

Honesty anyone?

It was so nice talking to shawn and adilah today, though both about really different things. First time in GP i didn't feel sleepy 'cause I was talking to shawn the whole time. I love having such talks where we question life, question our beliefs, our faiths and discuss about things you normally won't speak of. About ourselves, how we were once young and foolish and realising how much we've grown and still growing. It's so fascinating and .. kind of heartwarming too? to know that we've matured. No need for people to point that out, you just feel it in you. I love thinking deep about such nonsensical stuffs, about things that have no definite answers because somehow both sides makes sense. This is so intriguing.

This week haven't been productive. WILL AND MUST START STUDYING THIS WEEKEND!

xy's big day (:

2011-03-30T17:33:00.002+08:00

rolling in the deep

2011-03-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

My current fb profile. ilove this picture of us! everyone looked good here hehe.

adilah complaining bout her ripped pants hahaha
love y'all :D :D :D

anyway, i can't believe i only heard rolling in the deep-adele yesterday. It's so good I can't get enough of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'nuff exclamation marks to emphasize my point. GO LISTEN.

toodles cupcakes.

lazy days

2011-03-27T21:13:00.003+08:00

Been spending all my days at mole's crib. Oh ya, anyway i realised he's got so many dark spots on his face that i've started to call him moley hahahahahahaha. CT's OVER~ okay that's not really "latest news" since i ended my last ppr on wednesday. I've been way too happy indulging in this sudden wash of free time and catching up on fun. Feeling a pang of guilt now cause i haven't done any school related work the past 4 days. Spent my Thursday out with the lit girls and tom since CSE students still had paper. *evil laughter* We ate seoul garden at marina square and took a gazillion pictures till i was so tired of smiling for the cam. We camwhored in the toilet and made poor tommy wait for us outside haha. Then we went out into the sun and you should have seen us. We were jumping for joy 'cause the sun was so bright and nothing beats a blazing sun for pretty picturesssssssss! WE WERE SO DEPRIVED. Went to esplanade and continue picture taking till we sweated and didn't feel like moving. haha. But it was all WORTH IT. So many blog worthy, profile worthy pictures (: Can't decide what to post in here. Went to meet mole afterwards for a "real date" and he bought me flowers!!! BOUQUET OF FLOWERS!!! I've never recieved a bouquet before!!!!! hahahaha bet it was expensive! hahah you could have plucked some wild flowers and tie it together and i'll love it all the same but stilllllll~ awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. love you a hundred and million.

Celebrated xy's birthday at my place and mole came to sleep over the following day. happy birthday boss~ Thanks for you gifts from thailand hehe :)

I wished everyday's post exams. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

chels chels!

2011-03-12T19:01:00.002+08:00

lovable (L)

2011-03-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

why can't you just ..... why!

new hair ?

2011-02-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

WAZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEW HAIR! YAY OR NAY????????????????????

Jack

2011-02-24T17:36:00.001+08:00

my very first chanel my dad gave meeeeeeeee nong nong time ago (: But didn't used it until recently lol

THANK GOD TMR'S FRIDAY ALR ~~~~~~ Thinking of not going to school tmr. Road run is -.- nomnomnom im so hungry now. I want to watch black swan and no strings attached! But it's M18 urgh so annoying.

simple days

2011-02-20T12:25:00.002+08:00

its the kind of day when you just lounge on the couch rewatching the third time of yes man, second time of CM and glee munching on leftover chinese new year goodies and reaching for each others hands occasionally. Before our stomach growls we head down for a slow walk to the familiar places for stingray and your favourite can of coke. And rushing back to catch glee where after you watch me do my work and sneak occasional peeks at your silly face. I love simple days like theseee ~

2011-02-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

wouldn't mention a thing next time.

goodbye cyber world.

2011-02-16T17:04:00.001+08:00

☹

shrouded minds

2011-02-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

i think i need to start keeping a diary. But i've never had one~ I can never get myself to religiously write it everyday. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BUT I NEED ONE.

finally met up with old friends!

2011-02-13T13:14:00.002+08:00

animal

2011-02-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

2011-02-09T14:29:00.001+08:00

can't agree more with: your worst enemy is none other than yourself. Seriously where does all these negative thoughts come about? My own mind fucks all things up and distorts every single piece of info i get so that i am made to believe aand feel the way my brain projects it to be. I want to selectively choose phases of life i want to live and erase all the other parts away. Looking forward to so many things which might not necessarily be good. But it serves as a form of escapism or maybe a source of hope? Being contented with the present and not be expectant of others or of the future probably is the hardest thing everr.

Can sb know me?

hcny

2011-02-05T11:57:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year!!!!

huat ah!!

visual

2011-01-26T19:37:00.005+08:00

A shot poh took which i thought was kinda coool (:

Some kind of self doubting and self affirming, seeing things, looking back and forth trying to see some worth in these deceiving images only to realise you can't decieve yourself because you know best. And when you look down the truth just sets in further, shoving you back into your suffocating shell. While you wait and wait for that moment where you finally find some temporary solace and attempt to step out and face it again.

Promised myself to start work at 8pm and I shallllllllllllll ~ Can't wait to edit the pictures I took on Sunday at Macritchie. Went on a trail to HSBC tree top village with poh and brought our babies to act like pros snapping pictures of random things (:

2011-01-10T23:31:00.002+08:00

First week of 2011 really sucked. I cried almost everyday cause of stupid and unstupid reasons, childish behavoirs and i don't know what. I had a big fight with my brother, my mother and my father now my house is sucha dreaded place. Poh's house is like my second house now. I'm there almost everyday but i don't mind cause i get to see pohs silly face. I study there, poop there, eat there, watch tv there lol.

First day of J2 and i can feel the intensity of this year already. How scary. The only way to get by this year, is simply not to think about how things will gonna suck when heavy workloads and late night studying kicks in. One step at a time i guess. Lucky i have poh to fall back on, cause i hate my fam now. Nothing sucks more than falling out with every single member of your family.

I have two people that im really grateful for being a big part of my 2010. So many things to thank you for and so much emotions i wanna pour out. I've already wrote a letter to one of them which pretty much sums up but still not quite enough i think. There's never one letter which fully expresses how one feel, cause its those little thoughts you get in the day or before you sleep where you start thinking about random things you wanna say to this person. haha. But still, a letter is better than none, gonna start writing my second letter to this awesome person soon. Right now, I gotta sleep and prep myself for my second day of school.

hi school

2011-01-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

I feel so sad to say one more week to school, but rv peeps must be hell loads sadder because they have to go to school in just a few hours time! hahahaha. I'm not done with homework yet much less study.. Really have got to get my lazy ass to start some doing some serious work. HELLO 2011!! I keep refering 2010 as this year urgh. havent gotten used to this "its a new year" kinda thing. Laid in bed for quite some time just now and couldnt sleep so i decided to get up and tidy my room a little. Can't remember the last time i got close to packing my room. My room is a mess, and simply a mess is a understatement. Those who've seen my room before will understand...

I hate packing my papers and books and notes . Damn fustrating and time consuming. I just love to throw everything away cause its the least troublesome. hahaha. I don't have to worry about where to chuck them to or whatsoever.

Oh ya, i just found my LA girl rockstar nail polish!!!!! yesssssss. I've been searching for it for the longest time already!

I think my life is perfect now. Its like i dont even mind school. I really hate school, but i dont mind it now?!! I must be insane. I'll probably regret it once school starts. haha. I cannot wait for Alevels to be over!!!!!!!!!!! I will travel to so many places and for so long i'll forget how Singapore looks like. Can't wait. Then if i do well, I'll be a university student. HAHAHA. sounds cool. I still feel so young and so small but in like 2 years time i'll be an adult?!?!?!??! This is madness. I feel like i havent really matured enough to be called an adult yet.. -.-

Hello poh, are you reading this during your work time? hahahahahha. Hope it killed some of your boredom hahahah love ya!

2010

2010-12-31T11:28:00.002+08:00

i have pretty nails now! All geared up to welcome the new year :)

My only resolution is to do everything the same again next year but loads betterrr. And of cos to do well for my As. 2011 please be good!

See ya next year!

merry christmas!

2010-12-26T02:37:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

My christmas was good <: poh came and slept over at my placee on christmas eve! Now he's in malaysia alreadyy. ): Spent christmas at my grandma's place and i recieved so many presents!!! HEHEHEHHE. Makes me feel like a kid again ~

Been looking at photoshop tutorials and i made this! :)

Got the tutorial from here: http://photoshoptutorials.ws/photoshop-tutorials/text-effects/elegant-typography-on-vista-background/Page-8.html

turned up

2010-12-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

I believe happiness is derived collectively, when it is shared, passed on and only exists when there is more than one party. You can't be secretly happy all by yourself. That is not true happiness. Therefore, i love company (:

2010-12-20T16:00:00.001+08:00

Feeling kinda bored right now. booo ): the worst feeling in this world have to be boredommmmmmm urgh I can't stand having nothing to do, just lazing around feeling so aimless. its such a waste of time yknow? I'm so weird.....
sucks to have no plans for christmas too. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

grenade cover

2010-12-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

so gooooood (:

photobooth

2010-12-18T14:12:00.000+08:00

hahahha i have no neck

check out poh with his huge nose and flabby cheeks hahahah :B :B

all things pretty

2010-12-17T03:25:00.004+08:00

It's 3.25am now. I'm just done with watching Australia's NTM season 5's ep 6 (wow thats quite a mouthful hahah) and the girls are just sooo pretty. Most of them anw. i just recieved my housing for my bb! and its looking rather ... unique. hahaha. I think i need to get used to it for abit. here's a lousy pic for my bumblebee bb. sounds like bumblebeebeebee. hahaha. looks kinda cool. didnt want to get pink cause its like a little too barbie? idk.

im thinking of repainting my room another colour. something bright and sunny and really cool at the same time. Was thinking maybe teal or sth yellowish orange. Can't decide. Hopefully i paint it soon enough then i can get a new bedframe. Oh and i feel like sticking some wall papers too haha. Been googling teal rooms and they look gorgeousssssssss. I'm currently on fy,lovely rooms and maybe it's the lighting or the editing of the pictures but the rooms there looks d i v i n e. :O

ps, :O this is currently my favourite emoticon hahahahahahha :O!!!!

eelee

2010-12-11T00:54:00.003+08:00

im like super tan now. def at least a shade darker, but that means my face is growing more frecklessssssssssssssss eww. freckles field.

poh is soo cute. i have to blog abt this. haha.

i lay in bed for the longest time ytd and i couldnt sleep so i texted poh again and said i cannot sleep and im gonna just on my comp and use it till im tired. then came his reply and he told me to shut the lid immediately and he will sing me a lullaby + tell me a bedtime story. i said okie but apparently i didnt off my comp la, so he called and he knew i didnt off my comp. hhaaha so i obediently did as he said, and he started singing a somg made up of "deen khoo" with a random tune. hahahahahhahahahaha so funny. its so catchy, i can sing it anytime. haha then he told me a bedtime story which went like this: once upon a time, in a land far far away there was a green ogre named shrek, and he married fiona. The end.

hahahaha i almost fainted. hehehe.

You're so retarded! haha. eeleeeeeeee x one million.

automatic

2010-12-01T23:57:00.001+08:00

somethings loses all its meaning after its been told, but still, it's always better late than never.

how time flies

2010-11-30T23:02:00.003+08:00

I think i have really cool curtains (:

I went facial today with mom at Bukit Timah Plaza today. My mom used to patronise that shop like 7 to 10 years ago? Still remember accompanying her for facial when i was young. We went back there again cause i kept bugging her to bring me for facial cause my skin was bad ): The beautician there, also my mom's friend kept exclaiming how big i am compared to last time. haha. I actually dont rmb her face though lol. But yea, time really flies eh. Before i even realise, i've already been living for almost 2decades and how much older everyone around me looks. My mom, my dad, my grandparents. I've always looked forward to growing up, so that i can be fully in charge of my own life, but for this moment, i wished time could stop.

bha

2010-11-28T00:07:00.003+08:00

Sometimes its as if i feel like i could spend my whole life with me, my thoughts and my loved ones (just that few). There's so much in life and it's impossible that we grab hold of everything. Too many people for us to care, too many things to pursue, too little energy, too little time. If only we all learnt to just be happy with what we have and stop consistently ask for more. I believe throughout our 80 years of life (or more) we'll only meet that few, probably 5, who are worth cherishing. I wonder if i've met them all. I've got to learn not to care so much, of what others think or how i should be. Life gets easier, i think. When im older and prolly more mature, life wouldn't be such a bitch most of the time. I want to go out and see more of this world, I can't wait to grow up.

i have a small mouth

2010-11-25T19:39:00.003+08:00

The ^v^ face. haha. i love photobooth, never fails to make my skin look purrrrr-fect. (: In need of facial nowwww. havent been for facial fo like a year already? hmmmm.

The weather's great for sleeping now but its still too early. Been sleeping way too late these days, my sleeping time is now like 1am? i don't like it. i like to sleep early and wake up early 'cause i think it's gonna help my dark circles but apparently, its not really working. sigh. it's okay i like be self delusional hahaa.

side to side

2010-11-21T23:47:00.005+08:00

Michelle i love this picture of you!!! EPIC.

it was M&M's day! happy birthday to both of you!!!!! :)

love ya love ya love ya.

And lastly polaroid w poh :)

dumbb

2010-11-01T00:30:00.002+08:00

hehehe :B

i feel like abandoning blogger. but where shall i move to? wordpress maybe??????

***

Anyway, was just randomly blog hopping and some random thoughts just came to mind. yknow how trends are always changing and we can never seem to catch up with all of them? the latest season the latest collection but so what if a particular style is trending? The most important thing is to wear something that flatters you. if high cut boots are the in thing now but sadly you have short and fat legs like me, then abandon it. if sandals are in, but like me you have broad ugly feet then dont wear it. fashion doesnt mean keeping up to the latest trend but wearing sth tht you actually look good in. i just can't stand it when people force some trends on themselves and end up looking really bad in them. Its like , if you cant pull it off then dont. you dont always have to look like a fashionista right. its okay to just wear a pair of denim shorts and a plain tee and still look good. stop trying too hard. lol. okay, just sayinggggggg ~

i'm still coughing urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~

take a chill pill

2010-10-25T20:38:00.003+08:00

*breathe in breathe out*

i need to cool down. before i say something i regret..

this past 7months is like one of the most tiring period of my whole life. Be it school or whatever.

BIG FAT SIGH.

"wo de tou kuai yao bao zha le" is my new catch phrase :o!

escapism

2010-10-12T22:23:00.004+08:00

feeling really depressed now cause my mind's thinking too much again. is this a girl thiing or is this just me? i've been pushing back that thought for the longest time, even before promos started. i kept telling myself, after promos i'll have all the time to think about it but now its like i'll say i'll think about it after pw is over. urgh, i just refuse to face it. i wont be able to come to a conclusion anyway. i want to rant so many things to people but i really dont know who. its like i dont want to repeat every single thing that have been going through my mind sooo many times all these while. i can't talk to peeps back in rv cause we just simply missed out so many things in each others lives, it'll be so weird to rant about your current life to them. i want to talk to somebody but aye, people judge all. the. time its better keeping to yourself.

i really want The girls private party eh, i want to take my mind off things & its really about time we girls caught up with one another. Am so sad now, i hope the world ends in 2012.

I should'nt have ... today. Am starting to regret it already. i dont think you even appreciate it. hais.

iwant this growing up phase to quickly end.

deadbeat

2010-10-09T22:07:00.002+08:00

usuals came over my place for steamboatz ytd (:

***

met up with elaineeeey today omg i at least 7 months never see her face alr lor . and i still made her wait one hour for mee. hahah so sorry. you're like the mosttt punctual friend i've got la. hahah you're forever ontime but not like thats a bad thing though! hehe <:

and she gave me a famous amos lollipop cookie as belated bday present hahahhahahaha. watched eat pray love and ate berrylite! to more chops to our free berrylite nomnomnom! i missed you so much lor. i miss NAFA with you. hope you're doing well in TP uh. don't drown in photoshop. the sad JC kid here want to go shopping soon w you. but wait till i have money first. hahha. im deadbeat. consecutive 2 days sleeping at 4am. :O if this continue my eyebags, dark circles, pimples and white hair will start appearing. tsk scary shit. kkkkkkk time for some beauty sleep (for the beauty) already. hahahaha.

BYEZ!

all that is left

2010-10-06T00:30:00.003+08:00

regarding this, i think i've tried hard enough.

i pray and pray but it seem useless. every single time i do, you're included but i always forgot to pray for us. maybe thats why.

2010-10-05T13:29:00.001+08:00

want to cry but i dont want to be called ku bao again. ):

i cannot tank life at all. im a freaking loser. BIG L. ):

tests be over!

2010-10-03T12:55:00.002+08:00

Phy geog and lit paper tmr and here i am posting nonsensical stuffs.my blog is so staleeee. does anybody even reads it? meh ~ 3 more days and its KABOOM. PROMOS OVERRRRRR. but i'm afraid that this "after promos time to play my hearts out" feeling wont be as great as i thought it would be. Then it'll be so disappointing right. I want to catch up with so many people, want to do so many things, but with who??????????? Haven't figured that out yet. Oh and i keep associating post promos with the holidays. -.- i just keep conveniently forgetting PW. meh ~

Anyway here are some things that kinda makes me feel good. haha not exactly happy but i just like it... kk very random i know. i just feel like saying la. MY BLOG WHAT.

1. walking into a shop playing the song you've been thinking of all week

2. waking up to friend's smses

3. having a clear agenda of what to do for the day

4. securing a great deal!!!

5. people encouraging me

6. good luck texts! (for exams or whatsoever)

okay i cant thihnk of any alr.

&my parents suck. i've been starving the whole morning cuz they said they'll buy lunch, now turns out i have to get my own lunch. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

i prefer the past

fattyfattybombom

2010-09-28T23:47:00.004+08:00

say hi to fat face ^^V
very very very pekchek. i dont get it why some girls eat like a freaking elephant also dont get fat. THIS IS SO UNFAIR RIGHTTTTTTTTTT. urgh. how many laps do i have to swim before i can get rid of all my unwanted disgusting and hideoussssssss fatss. ewwww. and its like promos now? i wanna swim everyday but i'll feel guilty... ): for wasting that 2hrs on swimming... i want to lose 10kg hahahahahahhahahahaha. talk crap only. if lipo maybe 10kg can, on my own? hahahahah, WAIT LONG. D:

Anyway, its chelsy's birthday today!!!!!!! bought some yummy treats for her hahaha and i sang her a birthday song. hah. i wanna be a dog too. no promos no stress. eat sleep shit ~~~~~~

2010-09-27T18:59:00.001+08:00

in future

2010-09-24T22:41:00.004+08:00

looking the sartorialist's blog now and i am just sooo attracted to all the really cool looks the people all around the world wears but yknow somehow i dont think these looks would look this great back here in sg. i loveeeee everything about the western culture i want to just hop onto their piece of land and live there forever.

oh and there's this amazing thing about blacks wearing full white outfits. it just looks exceptionally .. refreshing :)

i have so many things i wanna do when i grow up. but im afraid i'll accomplish none of them :\

happy belated birthday post for fiona

2010-09-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

hello fiona hehe. people dont believe the above picture she is shorter than me muahahha.

happy birthday! ai si ni le! haha

i should be sleeping now but i can't sleep cause im thinking about loads of stuffs. aye ): mainly stuffs i can't figure out. mind boggling. i hate myself for being sucha crybaby, for being so easily dependent on people, for being so freakimg useless, for being so easily affected, for being so pessimistic, for being so lazy, for being sucha worry wart. ultimately i hate the fact that im a girl. zz being a guy is so much easier. i think guys have brains like prata.i miss blogging kinda.

this one week of holiday i havent done much studying at all. zz studied abit lah. and abit = FRIGGING LIKE NEVER STUDY AT ALL ):

shoot me.

ichat is so cool. ppl add me up ichat!!! deenkhoo@gmail.com is my jabber id hehe

2010-09-07T18:40:00.002+08:00

if you'd let me choose again. i would rather i never met you in the first place. but whats done cannot be undone. suck it up deen

i feel like a frog ):

2010-09-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

i feel like typing something but i don't exactly know what to write.

watched yesman and he's just not that into you just now. sex and the city is showing now but zzz, that show is boringgggg.

oh wells.

2010-08-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

im gonna write a looong looong post after promos. i love all my friends lah seriously!!!!!! don't know what i could have been without them!!! and i can't wait for all these shit to end, seriouslyyyyyy. i hate promos i hate promos. 7 oct faster come! i want to partayeeeeeeeeee. but i scared i retain. wahleuzzzzzzzz ):

pact

2010-08-22T22:54:00.001+08:00

i'll keep it all somewhere safe until the day we're both ready. till then..

2010-08-10T08:48:00.001+08:00

i hate this.

is it insensitivity or you seriously couldn't be bothered?

dou ji yan

2010-08-08T17:18:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahhaa. nugget~

smile for the cam

2010-08-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

peace out.

buy me

2010-07-29T22:42:00.001+08:00

anybody wanna buy this bag? i can sell you cheapcheap. email me thanks (: wenqi-@live.com.sg

2010-07-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

BYE.

2010-07-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

hi im in no position to complain life sucks, but seriously, life's a bitch. frigging bitch. thanks.

oh yea, imma jinx. everything i touch turns into stone. everyone around me cursed. i turn people's lives upside down. hell yeah, thats my forte. i should just vanish.

2010-07-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”

-Henri Nouwen

madness

2010-07-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

I don't know why but i just love to stone during lessons. Its not like i sleep during lessons, its just i always fail to keep my from drifting away and thinking of other things. its only during lit lessons i am 100% into the lesson. okay most of the lit lessons cause our class is so small its easy to spot u drifting away plus, i can't afford to miss out any on lit. but its not like i pay so much attn in lit and i'll be able to secure an A. fat hope. hais sian. i hate this. dont want to stone anymore zzz but i cannot help it. i think of every little thing bothering me. i think of what i dreamt about, what i want to do ltr, eat ltr, whats wrong with this, what does this mean, i just love to occupy my mind with such unimportant stuffs. so much for a puny little brain. i think too much? probably. but i can't help it cause thats just me. i'll try but seriously, its harder than you think.

i really have to prioritize my stuffs well. like there's so many aspects to life which i would really want to put them all in the no. 1 priority seat but sadly, im no super human. family, friends, bf, studies to name a few. i would really want all of the abv to be my first priority but how can i juggle so many things and ensure they're all of equal importance????? Being a teenager isn't easy. I feel so motivated to study now, or at least do my work on time lah, but im still scared. idk if all these is enough to get me promoted. i really dont want to repeat. i want this torture to end quick, snap and im done with JC. so please bless me and pray i dont get retained. also, pray that i dont go mad in the midst of all these mugging and emotional torment. :O

how's life for you peeps?

icekachang, laksa, choc fondue

2010-07-11T11:01:00.003+08:00

met up w @eleij and @sheryljude hahaha. we are piggo max i like :) only people like them will eat this much with me lor. @eleij shared icekachang w me, then sheryljude came and got chengteng, then we see people eat laksa we super tempted, so we got one and share, then while walking we saw this advertisement for choc fondue at billy bombers (50%!) hahahaha, so we went in to nomnom. went sephora to check out makeupppp, so long since i last bought makeup. hais. broke ttm. went to flb's flea also dont feel like looking at any of the stuffs. mad hot and mad squeezy plus nomoneyyyy. ): hah.

pw later. till then peepz.

2010-07-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

I was merely telling you how I'd felt, instead of offering me a shoulder to lean on, you get all defensive. I guess you're only concern about what matters you.

4

2010-07-07T21:29:00.002+08:00

happy 4th month (:

2010-07-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

i can't wait to look back and realise how much i've grown.

2010-07-07T18:41:00.002+08:00

no one will get how hard it is to be in this entirely new environment with only 2 friends from from ur previous school especially people who are so sociable unlike me.i hate meeting new people, adapting to new surroundings, striking up conversations, trying to fit in. i miss all my friends in rv. i love how we can talk about anyth, gossip about others, bitch about people we don't like, laugh at silly things and look forward to holidays together. oh fuck i miss everyone so much. i can't believe it, i'm actually starting to regret transfering over to pjc. i need my friends back in rv. i want my old life back.

i hate to be me.

youth day

2010-07-05T12:45:00.003+08:00

school holiday todayeee. i look mad cui (jusst woke up, havent comb my hair or anyth what!) but chelsy is so cute i love her ttm ttm ttmmmm. tanning w pog ytd, not much sun but im still a little burnt. HE TAUGHT ME HOW TO MAKE A SAND BOMB. HEEHEHEH. so coooool. Then we made homemade cabonara pasta nomnomnom.

i am soooo broke now. i owe my MOM like 200+ bucks. my mom leh! i wished she wasnt so calculative w me hahahaa. then i can just not return her hahahaaha.

pw later :o k byeeee.

nomnom

2010-07-03T10:57:00.002+08:00

those are awesomezxzxzxz. Especially the muffins though it looks gross hahaha. looks are deceiving lah! haha. and yes i made them all myself including the icing~ im so proud of myself heeeee. using my baby mb in bed now. weather is best for rolling around and be a pig. just gave a kid lesson for art hahahaa. he is so naughty i want to smack his mouth. can't imagine my kid to beso naughty in future. i might just abandon him lor tskkkkkk ohkay byez.

random post

2010-07-03T01:45:00.002+08:00

its 1:45am now. My midyears just ended today, but there's no such thing as an end to a JC student isnt it? workload will still be as huge, the amount of studying we have to do will still be the same maybe even more. sucks to be in a JC right, but i aint got a choice i'm here already. Just hold on and pray that i'll be more hardworking next term and next year and get good grades for my As.

I'm kinda tired but there's like tons of thoughts going through my mind, so i guess here's the best place to share?

I really hate it when there're times where you really try, put your best foot in but all you get in the end is indifference. Its different from not being good enough, its like if you tried your best and you realise its not good enough, im fine with it, i admit I'm lousy but if you've tried your best and your efforts weren't even RECOGNISED, thats.. really bad.

Sometimes i wonder if it would be better if i said everything out, fought for eveything that i thought to be right. To be rash and let my emotions control me. Maybe life would be simpler then. Less stuffs having to be processed in my puny little brain, less taxing.

Its going two now...

I'm taken out of my pw group NOW (in july) to be added into a new group. and yea, im the only one cause minghe left and his grp is left w only three people. I wonder if i should be mad at mdm teo? But i know it isn't her fault. I guess i just have to accept the way things are. accept accept accept. We all just gotta accept life as it is, make the best out of the things you cannot change because the world does not revolve around you and you alone. I've fought very hard for certain things that is hard to change and sometimes it changes, sometimes it doesn't, but in fact, i guess i'll be better off it i learnt to be more accepting and contented with all that i've got rather than complaining and hoping things would change for you, because , they don't.

eyelids weigh more than my fat ass now. goodbye. hi bed.

i see my name in shiny light

2010-06-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

geog was a killer today.

kept falling asleep during the paper.

lit was a-okay. not too bad but not too fantastic either.

went home w pog :)

slept fo 2hours

woke up and still feel like sleeping

im having those beads of sweat abv my lips nao.

i think im falling sick.

my throat hurts.

im studying econs now.

i wish i could lie in bed and drift to lala land.

i wish pog was here now.

okay bck to books. byeeeeez

can you feel me?

2010-06-21T20:49:00.003+08:00

i seriously feel so screwed up right now. My midyears is like in a few days time and im TOTALLY, TOTALLY not prepared. i feel like killing myself for being such a sucka and not starting earlier. Don't have anyone to blame 'cept myself. It's always like that, its either i do something or not do something then regretlater. Can you feel me????????? As much as i really dont want to panick now, i really am. hais.
I want to turn back time to where i was still in primary school, or even in secondary school where pretty much everything was a breeze. (just some occasional struggles here and there.) Now life is such a bitch MOST of the time and this is so killing me. If crying really helps i would love to cry my two eyeballs out. My drastic mood swings are freaking me out too. I want to just feel neutral all the time... ):
Sometimes i wished that there weren't holidays at all, so that i dont have a reason to procastinate and at least study a littleeeeee everyday than slacking 3 weeks and find it hard to get back to mug mode. ):

2010-06-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

feeling SO fucked up.

alejandro

2010-06-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

that is moi sunflowerrrrrrrrr! i was so happy+surprised+touched that day. hahaha. thankyou yiting, ziya and fiona jie :D :D :D haha. i totally didnt expected it. thankyouuu. the sunflower is super pretty i swearrrr ~ post the pictures some other time. very lazy to load piccys now. My birthday was nothing big, celebrated with fam, didn't go party w the girlies but i spent it with pog. love you muacks. silly boy spent a lot of money on me, made me feel mad guilty about it :\

failed tanning session w pog on forgot when. unlucky max. heavy downpour the whole day. Went swimming at warrens in the end, sho sad. i seriously need some sun. i am turning white, i need to tan. even though i am fatty fatty bom bom. ): sadz. midyears are coming and i am so damn unprepared. can somebody hit me with a baton so that i will wake up and start some hardcore mugging? ):

minghe is leaving. I am so jealous, hate chuuuu! why never press on and struggle with us!!!!!!! aiyoo. hahah anyhow, all the best :) aye. one less person to talk to during chinese free period. :\

haven't been updating this space. dk what to write everytime i'm here.. heehahaw. k then. till next time.BYEBYE

pog

2010-06-17T13:21:00.001+08:00

hello. &thankyou for so many things.

2010-06-12T22:01:00.001+08:00

maybe i don't deserve you at all.

push push baby

2010-06-07T19:58:00.005+08:00

the colours here look so prettyyyyyyy~

& you thought today would be slightly better. Told you not to hopeeeeee. See now you're disappointed.. YOUR FAULT.

***

I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH :(

i wonder if you do too.

i missed y'all.

2010-06-06T23:12:00.005+08:00

hello babies. pictures from 28may and 3rd june! girlies ftw. missed them so much! haha. can't wait to meet them again. my birthday my birthday my birthdayyy. hehehe. let the pictures do the talking yo!

3rd june. met anise hee and melvin, sheryl and jon, jiele and her friend for a short while at rochor tauhuay ~ best place for supper muackz. then went of to meet pohhhhh ~ :)

28thmay @haji w the girls and the guyz yo!

goodnightz.

paper bags and plastic hearts

2010-06-06T20:32:00.003+08:00

i'm such a screw up.
sighsighsigh.
birthday's coming, idk if i'm still looking forward to it.
actually my parents are kinda nice. my brother too. i just gotta learn how to accept yea. accept people's kindness, people's care and concern, people's flaws. there's still so much for me to learn. i need to spend more time with my famfam. life will be good if i want it to be good.

imyimyimy ):

ATTN: MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 1406

2010-06-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

my blog lacks pictures of MEEEEEEEEE. HAHAHA. MEH MEH MEH.
iknow all of you miss my face x10. kkk, soooon ~~
happy happy joy joy. meeting zhiying soon ~
then hopefully i'll be able to get a stall at swap&shop and the four of us can have fun tgttttt, like old timesssss ~~~~~~~
i want to do so many things this june holidays. don't want to look back june and go "I SHOULD HAVE.."
Also, MIDYEARS !! faints.
my twitter looks mad chio now. i created new twitter again. deleted my old one cause i was pissed. lol

@DEENKHOOZ
GO FOLLOW ME PRETTY PLEASEEEEEE (i want this shadeeee for mac lippieeeeee hehehe.)

2010-06-01T20:25:00.002+08:00

so effingly boredddddd. ):
i need to do something to make my life more meaningful manz. ICAN'T JUST ROLL AROUND THE BED EVERYDAY~~ LIKE SOME PIG. ): BYEZ

seriously

2010-05-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

2010-05-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

yeah babehhhhh ~~
ilove the holidays because i can ... NOT GIVE A FUCK. ^^

girlies

2010-05-29T11:21:00.002+08:00

SO HAPPY I MET UP W MY GIRLIES YESTERDAY NIGHT (L) (L) (L)
LOVE ALL OF THEM SO MUCHIESXZXZ. hehehehe. SAD FACE x1 million JIELE HAD TO GO EARLY. BUT NEVERMIND, WE CAN MEEET UP FOR BREKKIE THEN DO SOME HEALTHY ACTIVITIES TO MAKE UP FOR LAST NIGHT'S UNHEALTHY ACTS. HAHAHAAH. LOVE YALL SO MUCH :B:B:B
PICCYS SOON ~ AFTER I RTN JIELE HER BABY AND SHE UPLOADS THEM HAHA.
I DIDNT BRING MY DSLR YTD NIGHT~~ SO WASTED! ):
HAHAHA.

2010-05-28T00:38:00.002+08:00

I'm afraid that when we meet, we'll just have to face the harsh fact that we no longer belong in the same world, that we have changed during this period of time when we're away to somebody we no longer are familiar with. At least now, I can still hold on to some hope that we do still kinda belong even though we know it ourselves that it may be otherwise.

eletheowl

2010-05-27T18:56:00.006+08:00

looking at this picture makes me drooooool. so hungry naowwwz. TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BABEHHHHH. I WAIT FOR THIS DAY,WAIT DAMN BLOODY LONG ALRDY. OMG FINALLY A SHORT BREAKKKK BEFORE ANOTHER 6MONTHS OF MADNESS. (Y)

***

It’s hard to be strong when you love the one thing that makes you the weakest.

When you’re around someone for so long they become a part of you, when they change or go away you become lost and you don’t know who you are without them.

And sometimes you just have to let go and forget what is it you feel and just remember what you deserve.

I’m not even going to get mad anymore. I just have to learn to expect the lowest from the people I thought the highest of.

There are still some things that need to be said...

You’re not sure that you love me, but you’re not sure enough to let me go. It’s not fair to keep me hanging around in the in-between just because you can’t make up your mind. You say you don’t want to hurt me but you already have.

I’m sick of this feeling, this feeling that I’m not good enough for anyone. That
no one will ever want me. I want to be able to feel good. I want to have a
relationship with someone, anyone, that won’t be ruined by my fear of losing
them.

eletheowl is awesome. (Y) some of them, or actually all of them is so true..

eletheowl.tumblr.com

it fell..

2010-05-25T00:13:00.004+08:00

just reached home and i've got to rush an eom out which is due tmr. i'm so tired. but i don't feel like sleeping, neither do i feel like doing my work...

good day everyone.

lingjiayi came to crash today. brought her in for econs lecture with us. hah. caught up a little. &she's flying off on tues alrdy. sadz. i got so many things i feel like writing but its hard to share on this domain. meh. sucks.
feeling so stoned now o.o

met up with s, a and j on sat night. damn mad, i cannot believe it.
then so many things happened.. zzz.. why :\

bye all.

what fell.

its so weird

2010-05-24T08:09:00.000+08:00

In school now. Finally the last week of school. Another 4more days including today then its holidays!! So sweaty now. Neh. Blog using phone got no feel leh. Haha. Byez

bright lights

2010-05-18T21:02:00.003+08:00

school is such a pain in the ass.
i'm so disinclined to blog nowadays, my blog is so dead i should throw it away. i've got nothing to say, i have so much work to do but i really really really have no mood for work now. seriously, why can't there be days where i could tell the teacher: I was really not in the mood for homework yesterday. & they'll just let me be. I seriouslyyyy hate rules regulations authorities boundaries or whatever restricts me. Why did i even chose jc in the first place. neh, all i rant everyday is about school. Even me myself is so sick of this same old topic, but seriously, school is the source of ALL problems.
If i could i would do a pw on scraping off school. zz.
I see poly student's facebook pictures, having fun, going excursions, webcamming and i feel like punching their faces. not their fault, it's me. I have issues on people having fun while i'm suffering. -.- chill poly students i have nothing against you guys. ITS ME. ):
I used to feel like i only really start living after friday but now, even my weekends are gonna be taken up by pw. (Y)

dad's birthday is today. i haven't said happy birthday to him yet. im such a filial child. Somehow, you just grow out of birthdays don't you? Birthday was once a bloody big deal to me, where i'll wake up all jolly thinking its my birthday againnn. Expecting people to remember, to wish you happy birthday, to get you gifts and cakes but now you just go oh, and forget all about it. You don't even really care if people get you gifts or rmb it. So sad. Being a child was way easier.

Anyway I wonder whats wrong with singpost. They're mad slow nowadays. My parcels used to arrive the next working day, now its taking agesssss.

untitled

2010-05-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

2010-05-05T23:50:00.003+08:00

lit seriously is killing me.
my head is pounding so badly now.. ouch ):

happy birthday anise hee! :)
hope you had a great birthday this year. miss you!

wahlao eh, you're like the best lor. (Y) bwg.

im still young

2010-05-04T20:18:00.002+08:00

hihi, lim you xiang's birthday yesterday! :)
got him a rose and a gay hello kitty ballooon hehehehe.

Lit is seriously killing me.. ): SAD. BYE PEOPEL

higher than the sky

2010-05-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

just thinking how will it be like to walk from one end of singapore to the other end at your own pace and watch the world go by.. watch all the cars speed pass you, watch everyone scurrying to their destinations, watch everything pass by in a blur.
is it better to have a target and all you do is strive towards it and forgo everything in the process of your pursuit or is it better to take it slow and live life as it is, enjoying everysecond of the process even if it means not attaining your goal in the end?
would you rather be somebody big and famous or just a little nobody? Would you rather stay in a place all your life and be happy or travel all around the world and risk having to worry about lodging etc?
why does people still expect even when they've been disappointed for so many times?
just thinking ..

anyway, happy birthday limyouxiang!

care-less.

2010-05-01T21:35:00.002+08:00

home alone

2010-04-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

home alone again on a lonely friday night. hahahahahaha. i feel like i own this house eh. (Y) SEESEESEE, CHELSY HAD A HAIRCUT! She finally looks like a poodle and not a bear now. SO CUTEEEEEEE. Everytime i see her walk pass me, i'll pick her up and swing her around then exclaim: chelsy you so cuteeee! 我很喜欢你!! hahahahaha. LAMEEEE. am so tired. but i haven't shower. zzzzzzzzzzzz. & iwanna do some work before i sleep. don't wanna rush through it on like sunday nightzxz again. PI PI PI. dont like pw.

AYES. I FEEL LIKE A BAD KID LEH. ): REBEL_93 is me. SIAN. wanna shop, need to shop, have to shopppppppp badlyyyyyy! wahlao. i want to be buried by money. HAHAHA. fall from the sky please. somebody please invent something that changes rain into gold. tyvm. I want all to buy all the shoes in the world. zzzz. BYE.

oh ya forgot to mention, I LOST MY WALLET AGAIN ): this time sure gone. no matter how lucky i am. sure goneeeeeeee. lost it at wheelock. tell me how to get it back lah! ):

kay, this means: time to get a new wallet. WHOO!

我们抱抱

can't be sell fish

2010-04-27T20:21:00.010+08:00

awesome air guitar, rolling on th road, dodo at road side headquarters (:

im so tired :O feel like sleeping my life awayyyy until 2012 where everyone just perish tgt. i've got nothing to say eh. but just feel like filling up this space with wordsss. i fucking hate mdm lina that bloody pinoy. anyway i found my wallet. :) told ya i'm a lucky girl. but guess my luck is wearing off now. lotsa stuff not going my way. life/school is seriously screwing me up. gotta face it like a mannnn!!!!! goodbyez. time to face my effed up life.

lucky lucky, happy go lucky?

cue comp

2010-04-24T11:34:00.004+08:00

ah dog! your jia wei! hahahahaah. so kewtz! <: found this somewhr in my comp hehe.

cuecompetition ytd. tough match but its fun nonetheless. hahahahahaha.

oh and i lost my wallet. wtfbbq. ultimate sian. in my whole entire life i've only lost my wallet twice, once in pri school and this which is the second time. i always manage to lose it and get it back one lorrrrrrrr. hope it's the same for this time. lucky girl stay lucky please. hahaha. :Dno ezlink card no posb no money now and i've got no savings lor, so im literally penniless now ): thank god my nric is not inside. tsk.

have a great day ahead babiessssssssssss. BYEBYE. love all, muacks muacks.

wassup w this world..

2010-04-19T23:16:00.001+08:00

On a hiatus.
Until I don't feel so much like dying

bad day bad start bad everything

2010-04-19T21:24:00.003+08:00

today is sucha bad day. Woke up sweating like some dog. Went to bathe prep my self for school and i ended up being lateeeee. idk how too. im damn screwd. Rushed like madddddd, forgot to bring tie, ran to the busstop and ended up waiting so damn long for bus. Finally 190 came, couldnt make it in time so i just went back home to get my tie. Got dad to fetch me to school, and fuck, he gave me that poly JC talk again. Why can't he just take a chill pill and just let me go poly instead???? i don't get parents.

The day at school was a-okay. i like mondays. break after everylesson. lectures all the way, so passive, so me. JC's so mentally draining yet P.E isn't helping. PE is soo tiring. drains me out both mentally and physcially. cock up manz seriously. Everyday's like running a blooody marathon. Econs is mad. I CATCH NO BALLZ.

School ended pretty badly. don't feel like talking bout it. walking in the rain felt kinda good. chilly but nice. Hope i end up ill due to that walk in the rain. But neh, guess im too tough. Econs test tmr, hope i don't screw up, but i can't get anyth in my headd. Went to grab sth to eat but ended up scalding myself. ouch. hurts i tell you. Today's a bad day. bad start bad end.

not in an awesome mood now. Bye.

2times. that hard?

有用的人

2010-04-19T00:20:00.003+08:00

Met up w pog and did my econs, then we went off, in search for ajisen volcano ramen. Check his "HANDY DANDY" iphone (finally got his iphone back!! :D thankyoouuuuuu. ) which directed us to vivo but ... FAIL LAH. your trusty iphone super not trustable pl0x hahahahahaha. no ajisen! so we went to ate carls jnr, like not full one leh. Carls jnr burger very big mehhhhhhh???? :O
Then caught rec 2 cause timing just nice :D But not scary leh, even though there's still those chua tio moments here and there.

From tomorrow onwards, i will be a 有用的人. this time, i will make good on my promise.
oh, and i'll save up. this one abit hard sio, but YESS, i can do it. Back to my piggy bank dayyyssss. Bye! School tmrw!

telephone

2010-04-18T11:42:00.003+08:00

i want a mac book.

it just shows,

Ha ha ha

2010-04-17T19:14:00.001+08:00

click to enlarge! read it! hahahahah.

12:12

2010-04-17T12:09:00.004+08:00

steamboat last night w usuals and pog! soooo long since we had our last gathering eh. went groceries shopping with yeekhang, mad tired lor. ttly fell asleep on the benches while waiting for the rain to stop. Thenn chuaxinyi and sohrenxian came and we went home to prep the food. :D tired maxx. but fun nonetheless. more of such soon!
Gotta stop spending so much and stop going out so often. Am so broke. sucks. Bye.

swing swing again ):